Normally, this time of year, we are able to go to sleep with the windows open and sleep in barely there pajamas and enjoy the warmth of the summer season. This year, though, is quite a different story. While relatives in Boston are facebooking about how incredibly hot and humid it is and while friends in the South are "complaining" of the same. I am jealous. I'm discontent. And, I even feel gipped.
It is a sizzling 61 degrees right now INSIDE of our Northern California residence. Outside, it is 57 degrees. The sun never came out today in our neck of the woods - and this is the way it has been pretty much all summer. We had a few warm sunny days, but very few.
I complain about the weather to my boyfriend. I complain to the clerk at the store. I share in the complaints with my coworkers. I complain to my family who are enjoying a "real" summer. Yet, none of this seems to make the temperature go up (though perhaps it has this effect on my blood pressure).
I've even experienced negative moods and even some slight feelings of depression over this. Though, again, this hasn't seemed to persuade the sun Gods to look favorably on this part of the planet.
What can you do? Acceptance seems like the most logical "solution." Enjoying the situation for what it is seems like the practical and sensible thing to do. Yet this situation has illustrated two key areas where I need to continue to grow:
- Acceptance of what is
- Letting Go of Attachments
Letting go of what I believe summer SHOULD be (but shouldn't it???!?) and what I think it needs to look and feel like in order for ME to be happy - that seems to be a huge attachment that I am struggling with.
In some ways, this is a positive thing. I will be very pleasantly surprised if I am able to let go and make peace with what I perceive to be "crappy" weather. If I can truly accept this, become able to be happy in the moment despite or because of it, and if I can let go of wanting to control an aspect of the Universe and its plan, I will be quite surprised. What a milestone in two significant areas of personal growth it will be.
My goal is to go with the flow tonight and tomorrow...to practice acceptance of the weather, even if it is not the typical "perfect" August night and day that I would like to experience. I will even look for some good in the situation.
What about you? Can you relate to this with different variables, perhaps?
I'll keep you posted on my insights.
Debbie aka Sulilo