Even though it can be difficult to leave the past behind, it truly is essential to do so in order to fully love your life as it is in the now - in the present. It is quite a miracle when we finally awaken to this truth. May you Let Go. ~ Sulilo
For years, my significant other (who is quite Buddhist by nature) has astutely discerned much of the cause of my suffering - living in the past - attaching to the past - wishing for things to be like they were in the past. A part of me intuitively knew this, of course, but I was so caught up in and attached to living this way that I didn't have much desire to change it.
It wasn't until the other day, when another male figure in my life that I respect said, "You need to leave the past behind. MOVE ON" that something really shifted inside. All of my partner's words came rushing to me about how I should the past - especially things that happened so long ago - go, release, and live in the now. A seed that had been planted, watered, and tended to had finally sprouted.
I am a child of the 80s and love the music from that decade. I am often transported to that time period simply by hearing a song that holds memories. While this is okay, it seems that I've held on to memories so tightly that I developed preferences in my mind that everyone and everything remain stagnant, just the way I remember them being when I was a little girl (which is odd, since I acknowledge the immense changes I've experienced within over the years.)
I moved out to California about 15 years ago, and I was very young when I made this big move from from Massachusetts to San Francisco. My Dad had recently passed away from a terrible disease, and not too long after, my maternal grandmother passed away.
Moving so far away seemed to have an effect on my emotions and feelings - the physical distance was mirrored in emotional distance. And, honest to goodness, up until a few days ago I unfairly expected everyone back in Massachusetts (my family, friends) and everything (places I used to go to) to still be the way I remembered it, and I treated people as if they were the same as they were in the 80s...or in 1995.
It was a REAL, TRUE, Awakening that occurred the other day. It was almost as if my inner child said, "Ok, Mama. It's time to move on. It's time to let that all go and Be Here Now." I am excited to watch how this transition manifests itself. I feel so blessed by this whole experience. I look forward to sharing additional insights on this as they arise in hopes that you will be blessed too.
May you feel led to Let Go when Spirit leads you. May you be open to moving on and healing.
Debbie aka Sulilo